Day 4

Today was a little bit better of a day...It had its ups and downs but all together I have to say it was a OK day. Its started off a little shaky with me waiting tell 2 almost 3 am for martin to call because he PROMISED to call me when he woke up before work but he didnt so I waited up tell lunch time his time and he STILL never called....then finally went to sleep because I could not wait any longer...then woke up praying he would call cause it was already after 6pm his time but NOOOOOOOOO of course not he didnt call tell past 9pm his time and what was his reason to not skypeing me??!!!??? He was at the MWR since 8am playing pool and video games....REALLY?!?!? I was sooooo upset...and to make it even worse there was comps and phones at the MWR that he could have used to call me but he didnt :-( I decided he is to far away to fight over little stuff so I just told him that we waited around forever for his call and next time please take a min out of your time to call us.

I know it hasnt really hit him that he is gone and not going to see us for a long time cause he has been so busy and traveling there and everything I just wish he would realize How hard it is for us with him being gone and that our HIGHLIGHT of the day is to talk to him.....and skylar misses him just as much as I do if not more. I think once he is there for a couple week or when he has a really hard day and gets off he will starting realizing he cant just come home and start missing us but it still kinda sucks. But after that whole thing LOL Me and the kiddos and grandma went and got out of the house for a few....then came home and I cooked a super yummy dinner and had a friend and her kids over for dinner and to play. It was really nice to have her over and I know Skylar LOVED having kids here to play with. I think it made it alot better day for her. She had a little bit of a hard time going to sleep but NOTHING like it has been the past couple days. Which was really nice :-)

Now me and jr lay in our HUGE bed without a daddy to cuddle with :-( I think that is the hardest part about all of this is the night and knowing he will not be in bed to cuddle and love on and wont be there when you wake up. But I just keep trying to tell myself I am strong enough to get through this and We love each other more then anything that we may be thousands of miles apart but our love is what keeps us together.